i feel so weak

Sunday, April 15, 2007

didnt had any sleep last night at all...WHY?cause i just cant get to sleep...came back from town-ing abt going to 12...then i tried to slp..was rolling on my bed..but i just cant get to sleep...at 4am...i had to leave by 4sth....WHY?cause i had to go to the graveyard...*qin ming jie*(i think that this shld be the way of spelling that word)the last time i last went was dont know how many donkey years back...haha..=P...i tell you...me aunties and uncles...are crazy man..they took pics of my grandfather...great great grandmother...and one more forgotten who is that person related to me...haha..=P...ya...and they were like "hey bluetooth to my hp"....haha...later i ask one of my cousin to put my uncle's hp wallpaper as my great grandmother pic...he took so long to realize that his wallpaper has change....funny...we saw this really big spider at the graveyard...i was scare....but i ask my cousins to help me take pics of it...haha....here it is..

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here is a very close up pic...

hahaha.....big eh?all of a sudden the spider when missing...i was screaming..haha...damn scary la...

reach home abt 9+ i think...then took a quick shower...and lied on my bed to slp....was god damn tired sia....then slept till 4sth....i wanted to continue sleeping but i couldnt cause the part time maid came to do housework...hope i can sleep early tonight... thk god that this happen once in a year only...i hate waking up so early in the morning then worst leaving the house b4 the sun breaks in the morning...

fark!! i had my mens today...ya like so on the wrong day....grr....cramps....hate it...

anyway sch starts tmr....cant wait...but at the same time nervous...and scare...haha...i shall just see how it goes tmr...wish me luck...

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Friday, April 13, 2007

i feel like lying down on my bed...and not face my mum ever again...she just HURT me..calling me a bastard when i am her own daugther...image your own mum calling you that...just think of it when ya own mum dont believe you are going out with ya best friend...and say this words to you"only bastard ppl like you only believe ya own lies"....and next breaking things in ya room...plus the thing she broke it meant so much to you...when she know it...and asking you to stop meeting that someone when that person is just a close friend to you only...and warn you if you continue meeting that someone she will stop ya education in sch....FARK UP!!!COME ON JUST TELL ME HOW DO YOU FEEL?....*while i am typing all this shit out...my tears just start to flow...*

i just cant stop thinking of what happen yesterday....is just so hurting...i have never once seen a mother like this b4...only my bitch mother does that...gonna ignore her till i am happy....if not i am not gonna talk to her...

sch gonna start pretty soon for me...so btw i see her at night...i might be sleeping...so i dont really see much of her...that is GOOD....

is already 7sth...no one have bought back dinner for me...i guess my mum must be out with her friends...and ya i cant go out...she f-ing dont let me out...grrr...think i shall cook instant noodles...

KARMA KARMA KARMA.....
what goes ard comes ard what goes up must come down!!!!

how i wish my sister will see this entry and at least tell my mum abt it....fark it..

full stop for today's entrance...no mood to continue...

*randall thks for droppnig by and pass me those things...oh ya i know you bought the key chain thing that i wanted..thks ah..shall catch up pretty soon*

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冰箱结霜咖啡滚烫
煮不好最简单的早餐
我的生活是一团混乱
维持单身感觉茫然
喜不喜欢习不习惯
我总是说不出个答案
一个人来又一个人往
怎么让他流连忘返
我不想当笨蛋
我在墙上写满渴望
我可以大哭一场
房间还是空空荡荡
我绝对不逞强
该属于我任其自然
可是我也要安全感
在某个适当程度的主张
纵然是了解眼光也是温暖
每个早上都想赖床
没有梦是最让人沮丧
我的眼睛盯着天花板
也跑不出任何对象
我不想当笨蛋
我在墙上写满渴望
我可以大哭一场
房间还是空空荡荡
我绝对不逞强
该属于我任其自然
可是我也要安全感
在某个适当程度的主张
纵然是了解眼光也是温暖

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Thursday, April 12, 2007

wednesday 11/04/07

met joan abt 9sth at my bus stop...early eh?took 61 down to habourfront...*regretted taking 61*why?cause the journey was so long..my gosh...reach there...it started to rain....WTF man...i hate raining days...i swear man...then joan saw her BF at habourfront kopitiam...shock!!then slack there till 12sth....joan almost give up on waiting for the rain to stop...hehe....

oh ya sentosa change already....instead of buying the tix at sentosa...you got to buy the tix now at the interchange now...haha...but i think that will be temp....then when we reach siloso beach the sun was so hot...nice nice...suntan for awhile and the sky became cloudy....wth....grrr....joan and i took lots of pictures to kill time while my sun is up again....haha...oh and we took two vedio...was damn bored...shall upload the pictures and the vedio up pretty soon alright?

afer sentosa-ing....we headed back to my house cause i had to sweep and mop the floor....grrr....then order mac...slack for awhile then headed to beauty world...to play pool...it was my first time teaching joan how to play...she can catch up quite fast...not bad not bad....hehe....

left her hse abt 11 sth...cab home...left my house keys in joan bag..grrr...then keep on calling my sis...she dont want to pick up...i had to come over and knock at her window then she open the gate for me...grr...that all abt wed...

thursday 12/04/07

suppose to meet joan 12 at my bus stop..then we go gelyang there to eat prawn mee...i overslept...sorry joan...was really tired last night...rushing to blog and get myself ready...so nth much for now....i shall updated it again after my outing...=)

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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

dyed my hair...hmm can consider it as today morning..caue i dyed it abt 4sth in the morning..haha...i was damn bored so i decided to dyed my hair to kill time..bleax..this is what happen wen i dyed my hair...>>>>i stained the dye on my blanket...gosh...i had to scrub it when i woke up today...i took so long just to get the stupid stained out...FUCK...anyway now my hair is so black....black is the fashion now...so many ah mo celebrities are dying their hair black now...wait i want to dye my hair not because is in the fashion now...is because i think i shld be guai...now my hair is like totally black...i am not really use to it yet...hehe....later going to jurong area to get my shoe...then head to town to meet shuting to get the beach mat for my sentosa-ing tmr...haha...

FUCK MAN THE SHOW I WANNA WATCH 251 is sold out....all the days...

i so wanna watch this show so badly....grrr.............

MY GOD!!!!

why my life is so like fuck....nth have been going well for me this yr...
so many bad things have been happening...
feeling so moodless...fuck it man...

credit this picture to adeline goh!!
thks so much=)

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Monday, April 09, 2007

met up with my mum for dinner today...gosh i wanted to someone to get my sch bag done personally..i men i get the material for that person and ask the person to help me to machine it...wait let me tell you where i wanted to get it done..pls dont even go there....is at bukit timah shopping center..the shop is next to the pool shop....they charge me 100plus bucks for it...fuck them la...so ex....not as if is leather...is cloth material...my gosh....tsk tsk...then nvm when to beauty world to eat....i order the western food...i told the auntie that i dont want the baked beans on my plate in chinese she still can reply me ok...when the food come there was the stupid baked bean on my plate....gosh...nvm since the person is a old auntie i shall not say much....i must repeat myself next time...then walk ard beauty world with my mum cause was waiting for our dad to pick us up...then headed to wastons...bought myself a pack of lays...meji chocolate...and a black dye...ya decided to dye my hair black b4 i go back to sch...haha...guai eh?haha...k la....shall stop blogging here...hehe..=P...

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is it nice?i edit it myself...some of my friends say it look so dramatic...does it?hmmm....

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Sunday, April 08, 2007

i hate myself like so much...pls dont ask me...feel so fuck up now...moodless...i feel that i am such a letdown to my parents...screw myself...fuck it...

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Saturday, April 07, 2007

today towning with my bitches...shit i saw my sis in town la...so sway...recently i have been seeing her every sat....grrr...later met up with amy...so long never see her already...still the same as ever...hehe...oh ya...b4 i 4get i dont know what wrong with me man....i ate ban mian for dinner then an hour later i ate cheese fries then later two hrs later i ate spagetti and chocolate cake....gosh i am so gonna grow fat this way...trust me...I MUST STOP EATING SO MUCH already.....gosh....left town pretty pretty early today...cause headed town to mad jack to eat that when i ate spagetti and chocolate cake..haha..=P...slack there till 10sth and took a bus home...oh thks amy for the treat...hehe...totally broke now...=)....anyway there is this guy who just added me on friendster...and just found out that he know huiting...gosh...no comments..i dont know are they up to sth.....shall not bother abt it already....fucker...=)...shall end here to full now to type...hehehe....=P

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Friday, April 06, 2007

just watch cinderalla on channel 5...omg...i love chad micheal..he is just soooooo cute....

it started off when hilary*Sam Montgomery* lost her dad when she was a little gal and she had to move in with her step mum and sis...

she had to work everydat at her step mum resturant and study at the same time...

one day she went to cyber lan shop that when she started to talk to chad micheal*Austin Ames*but she didnt know it who it was but all she know that the guy was in the same high school as her...

slowly everyday they started sms each other...one day he ask her to go to the ball with him..he didnt see her b4..he said he will wait for her till she appear...

he went to the resturant with his normal grp of friends that when they realize that she is working there...

on that very same day he told her that he wanted to break up with her cause he think he haven fallen for another gal which was hilary*Sam Montgomery*....

on that night when the day comes....

this was what she was wearing another close up pic...

she waited for him to come...

she was shock when she found out it was him.... but they dance together...sweet...

like any other cinderalla story when the clock strike 12 she had to rush back to the resturant.. but instead of dropping her shoe she drop her hp...but she didnt reveal herself to him who she was...

after the ball he was looking for that "cinderalla"gal all over his sch... hilary*Sam Montgomery* step sisters found out that the cinderalla was their own sis they decided to go to micheal*Austin Ames* and him that they were the ones...but he just walk off...

this is the kind of punishment they get for lying

the two step sisters decided to tell his ex gf abt it....they decided to humilate her in sch

when he found out who the cinderalla was..he couldnt believe it...hilary*Sam Montgomery* was really upset...

on the game day...b4 his game started...hilary*Sam Montgomery* told him that she doesnt bother if he cant be together with her...but because of him she is willing to give up on her job and house....in between the game he know from his heart he really do love hilary*Sam Montgomery*...

they live happily ever after

so shld watch this show...trust me..is a really nice show...

yup stayed home one whole day today....guai eh?haha...no choice...couldnt find for anybody to go out with...hehe...tmr i will be out to town...tata...shall end my blogging here...=)

awwwww....isnt he cute...he is mine...bleax..

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pictures for yesterday!!!!

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Thursday, April 05, 2007

yup went out again...SEE that show my butt is itchy...went to westmall abt like 8 sth...like so wth..late la...thks to XING....grrr....then to saske sushi to eat...*got pics to upload pretty soon*..i dont know what wrong with my appetite...i ate so much at saske for the first time...usually i will ask xing to help me to finish my the other portion of food...but today not at all...i am scare to grow fat*crying*...went to supermarket to walk walk...got myself a pack of my favourite sweet..a pack of LAYS...and MEJI chocolate....wheee.....happy happy...i love chocolate..=P...pretty pretty...well our main puprpose to go to WM today is to get a baby present for xing cousin baby tmr cause tmr is the first month of the baby...end up we did was shop and eat....WAHAHA...anyway after done with our shopping at the supermarket...we slack outside WM..damn sian la...reach home abt hmmm...11?think so..then talk to mummy for awhile...she say i look cute and a jap gal with my two plitted*think this is how you spell it* hair..haha...i will take is as a complinent..=P...sometimes my mum is siao...sometimes she say i look like a ah lian...then now she say sth so nice...wth...but whatever....nice nice word...talking to joan now..omg....she is stepping into her very first relationship right this moment at this time....so excited for her...haha....wheeee....cant wait to see that guy of her soon....HAHAHA....

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my life will never be the same once i am back to sch...cant wait...

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woke up damn bloddy early today...like 8 sth in the morning...yes this early....siao right?haha...then i try to go back to slp but i just cant...then decided to call joan..lucky for me she was awake..hehe...if not i dont know how to kill time man..we talk abt like 1hrs plus...guess what she was using her hp to talk to me...haha...wish her luck for her phone bill...=P..i was so bored wanted to go over her house today in the end she tell me that she was busy...i understand..so decided to go suntan outside my house...suck man...no sand no sea sound...sentosa is still the best place to suntan...everyone agree? i try indoor suntanning b4...the tan will not last for long and is so waste of $$ serious...there is place call fabulous tan they do indoor tanning...which u can see on tv they are advertising it....oh pls dont ever go there...cheat $$...they say free trail..in the end you got to pay for this and that..rubbish...yeah...sentosa-ing this coming wednesday with joan...back to the topic...so after tanning abt 1 hr went back home and call joan to ask her abt sth...and found out she is going out with that someone....grrrr...she can go out with HIM....but not me...anyway order mac...i never eat a meal..only eat fries...=P..anyway next week gonna be a busy week for me...need to go and get my sch stuff...might be going out more next week...=P..

anyway was talking to joan abt this topic just now..why are there so many despo ppl out..as in super despo...i mean go play ard friendster and view ppl profile..see their tesi..

thks for the add
mind intro
do you mind adding me on msn...

this kind of profile just turn me off...and is usually be seen on guys profile and u can see all their friends is all gals...gosh...no comments...disgusting ppl..

anyway amy you make me so worry for you yesterday...pls stop with drinking ok?

ok is 1:23pm now....and i feel bored...it seem that my butt cant stick long on my chair...i must get out of my house...i am rotting...i am bored..gosh someone save me pls..

anyway my blog i have a list of diff songs scroll down the list and slowly listening to it..enjoy!!

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Wednesday, April 04, 2007

k i shall blog abit b4 i go out....ya going out again..haha..=P..anyway did housework again...i will not stop nagging abt housework till i am back to sch again...so guys bare with it ok...haha..=P...after for so long again i am wear spag top again...i feel abit wierd wearing it again...i dont know but i just feel this way..haha..my webcammie got pro if not i take a picture b4 i go out...screw my sis la...haha..i wanna blog more but i think i am gonna be late soon...so tata ppl...haha...shall blog more tmr...gonna miss the dance floor tonight...sad...nvm...bleax...

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Tuesday, April 03, 2007

got woken up by my mum today....shock why my mum will wake me up?cause she is sick again..and she is at home...woke at 1 sth...didnt really have time to get myself totally awake and had to follow my mum to beauty world...*yawn*...i told her i didnt want to...she started nagging at me..."ya can acc ya friends to go out but cannot acc me..."look like i got no choice right?usually i dont really like to eat lunch...but since i had to acc my mum out i had to eat...so i ate ban mian...is this how you spell it?haha...go supermarket with my mummy...bought food to cook for dinner...then cabbie home...i dont know how to eat my dinner later..my tummy still full of the ban mian i eat just now..haha...few more days to go till my sch starts...haha...i really cant wait...haven been studying for like one yr plus...i forgotten the feeling of wearing uni..haha...ppl may think i am insane now but ya..whatever...=P...well feeling better now then compare to last two days back...tmr will be another day at home i think..so far no one have ask me out..*hint*..oh ya..just edited my blog skins...is abit more plain then my previous blog...i wanna change blog skins but too lazy to edit it by myself*shoot me* so i steal this from blogskins.com...haha...

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Sunday, April 01, 2007

so so sry having been blogging this past few days...been pretty lazy..=P...i shall not blog much abt today too cause i am sick..really sick..=(....anyway happy april fooling ard ppl...hehe...=)shall end here...

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