i feel so weak

Friday, May 19, 2006

haven been blogging for few days....things i mean lots of things have been happening to me...dont wish to bring back the past again....why?cause i dont want to cry over it again...i know i can be strong....without anybody...i know i can....i got faith in myself....now i think i will just leave everything to fate...well...it feel that i wanna changen now...i dont want to be my old self...i want a new life too...i want freedom....i want to be more mature...i believe as long i give myself time all this things i can do it....so many things is hiding in me...dont wanna say it out...dont know who to turn to...dont know who to trust...who will be really there for me?beside xing...well....my family...i dont get it....why are they like this...treating me like this...WHY WHY.....first is my sis then now is my mum....i really just dont get it...when can they ever just grow up....my mum have been complaining that i have been going out too often...come on wth...how old am i already....because of this she thinks that i haven not been controlling my $$...and she confiscated my atm card....now i dont really have a lot of $$....can anyone be kind enough to donate $$ to the princess...hehe...really in need of cash now...haiz.....i got no mood now....wanna be hug by someone....so i feel comfortable and that person can be there for me...acting strong when i know i am week in the inside....want to cry but controlling...*back to my show...dont want to talk abt all this...*

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