i feel so weak

Thursday, April 20, 2006

baby came over to my hse at night abt 11 sth...i sneak out of my hse through my room window to meet her...hehe...and she bought for me chocolate...hehe...thks...anyway i just found out that i never activate my free incoming call then when i check out my balance yesterday was only 5 sth...wahaha...then i quickly go and activate it...then went to shell station to buy a top up card and chips..now i realize that my room is full of chips chocolate and sweet...haha...wanna buy more so next time i feel like eating just go into my room..hehe.. i feel so confused now...i mean why cant they undertand me...if i really did contact you guys now and then will you still keep in contact with me too...haiz...i have been working too have no time to be online...i know you guys are concern abt me...i understand....haiz..but why cant some ppl dont understand abt how other ppl feel...i mean is what they feel or think we cant stop them right?..haiz...i feel that you got some more things that you are hiding why arent you guys want to tell me..i really want to know how you guys feel?i feel so speechless...haiz...i just feel totally moodless now i think...just wanna be alone for awhile... i feel like getting out of my hse and get some fresh air...and to think a lot things...buti cant even step out...i wish to go out tmr i also cannot...my life is really totally like shit...so PISS.... my one and only says:i'm sorry that is what she say to me...

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