i feel so weak

Sunday, April 15, 2007

didnt had any sleep last night at all...WHY?cause i just cant get to sleep...came back from town-ing abt going to 12...then i tried to slp..was rolling on my bed..but i just cant get to sleep...at 4am...i had to leave by 4sth....WHY?cause i had to go to the graveyard...*qin ming jie*(i think that this shld be the way of spelling that word)the last time i last went was dont know how many donkey years back...haha..=P...i tell you...me aunties and uncles...are crazy man..they took pics of my grandfather...great great grandmother...and one more forgotten who is that person related to me...haha..=P...ya...and they were like "hey bluetooth to my hp"....haha...later i ask one of my cousin to put my uncle's hp wallpaper as my great grandmother pic...he took so long to realize that his wallpaper has change....funny...we saw this really big spider at the graveyard...i was scare....but i ask my cousins to help me take pics of it...haha....here it is..

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here is a very close up pic...

hahaha.....big eh?all of a sudden the spider when missing...i was screaming..haha...damn scary la...

reach home abt 9+ i think...then took a quick shower...and lied on my bed to slp....was god damn tired sia....then slept till 4sth....i wanted to continue sleeping but i couldnt cause the part time maid came to do housework...hope i can sleep early tonight... thk god that this happen once in a year only...i hate waking up so early in the morning then worst leaving the house b4 the sun breaks in the morning...

fark!! i had my mens today...ya like so on the wrong day....grr....cramps....hate it...

anyway sch starts tmr....cant wait...but at the same time nervous...and scare...haha...i shall just see how it goes tmr...wish me luck...

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Friday, April 13, 2007

i feel like lying down on my bed...and not face my mum ever again...she just HURT me..calling me a bastard when i am her own daugther...image your own mum calling you that...just think of it when ya own mum dont believe you are going out with ya best friend...and say this words to you"only bastard ppl like you only believe ya own lies"....and next breaking things in ya room...plus the thing she broke it meant so much to you...when she know it...and asking you to stop meeting that someone when that person is just a close friend to you only...and warn you if you continue meeting that someone she will stop ya education in sch....FARK UP!!!COME ON JUST TELL ME HOW DO YOU FEEL?....*while i am typing all this shit out...my tears just start to flow...*

i just cant stop thinking of what happen yesterday....is just so hurting...i have never once seen a mother like this b4...only my bitch mother does that...gonna ignore her till i am happy....if not i am not gonna talk to her...

sch gonna start pretty soon for me...so btw i see her at night...i might be sleeping...so i dont really see much of her...that is GOOD....

is already 7sth...no one have bought back dinner for me...i guess my mum must be out with her friends...and ya i cant go out...she f-ing dont let me out...grrr...think i shall cook instant noodles...

KARMA KARMA KARMA.....
what goes ard comes ard what goes up must come down!!!!

how i wish my sister will see this entry and at least tell my mum abt it....fark it..

full stop for today's entrance...no mood to continue...

*randall thks for droppnig by and pass me those things...oh ya i know you bought the key chain thing that i wanted..thks ah..shall catch up pretty soon*

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冰箱结霜咖啡滚烫
煮不好最简单的早餐
我的生活是一团混乱
维持单身感觉茫然
喜不喜欢习不习惯
我总是说不出个答案
一个人来又一个人往
怎么让他流连忘返
我不想当笨蛋
我在墙上写满渴望
我可以大哭一场
房间还是空空荡荡
我绝对不逞强
该属于我任其自然
可是我也要安全感
在某个适当程度的主张
纵然是了解眼光也是温暖
每个早上都想赖床
没有梦是最让人沮丧
我的眼睛盯着天花板
也跑不出任何对象
我不想当笨蛋
我在墙上写满渴望
我可以大哭一场
房间还是空空荡荡
我绝对不逞强
该属于我任其自然
可是我也要安全感
在某个适当程度的主张
纵然是了解眼光也是温暖

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Thursday, April 12, 2007

wednesday 11/04/07

met joan abt 9sth at my bus stop...early eh?took 61 down to habourfront...*regretted taking 61*why?cause the journey was so long..my gosh...reach there...it started to rain....WTF man...i hate raining days...i swear man...then joan saw her BF at habourfront kopitiam...shock!!then slack there till 12sth....joan almost give up on waiting for the rain to stop...hehe....

oh ya sentosa change already....instead of buying the tix at sentosa...you got to buy the tix now at the interchange now...haha...but i think that will be temp....then when we reach siloso beach the sun was so hot...nice nice...suntan for awhile and the sky became cloudy....wth....grrr....joan and i took lots of pictures to kill time while my sun is up again....haha...oh and we took two vedio...was damn bored...shall upload the pictures and the vedio up pretty soon alright?

afer sentosa-ing....we headed back to my house cause i had to sweep and mop the floor....grrr....then order mac...slack for awhile then headed to beauty world...to play pool...it was my first time teaching joan how to play...she can catch up quite fast...not bad not bad....hehe....

left her hse abt 11 sth...cab home...left my house keys in joan bag..grrr...then keep on calling my sis...she dont want to pick up...i had to come over and knock at her window then she open the gate for me...grr...that all abt wed...

thursday 12/04/07

suppose to meet joan 12 at my bus stop..then we go gelyang there to eat prawn mee...i overslept...sorry joan...was really tired last night...rushing to blog and get myself ready...so nth much for now....i shall updated it again after my outing...=)

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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

dyed my hair...hmm can consider it as today morning..caue i dyed it abt 4sth in the morning..haha...i was damn bored so i decided to dyed my hair to kill time..bleax..this is what happen wen i dyed my hair...>>>>i stained the dye on my blanket...gosh...i had to scrub it when i woke up today...i took so long just to get the stupid stained out...FUCK...anyway now my hair is so black....black is the fashion now...so many ah mo celebrities are dying their hair black now...wait i want to dye my hair not because is in the fashion now...is because i think i shld be guai...now my hair is like totally black...i am not really use to it yet...hehe....later going to jurong area to get my shoe...then head to town to meet shuting to get the beach mat for my sentosa-ing tmr...haha...

FUCK MAN THE SHOW I WANNA WATCH 251 is sold out....all the days...

i so wanna watch this show so badly....grrr.............

MY GOD!!!!

why my life is so like fuck....nth have been going well for me this yr...
so many bad things have been happening...
feeling so moodless...fuck it man...

credit this picture to adeline goh!!
thks so much=)

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Monday, April 09, 2007

met up with my mum for dinner today...gosh i wanted to someone to get my sch bag done personally..i men i get the material for that person and ask the person to help me to machine it...wait let me tell you where i wanted to get it done..pls dont even go there....is at bukit timah shopping center..the shop is next to the pool shop....they charge me 100plus bucks for it...fuck them la...so ex....not as if is leather...is cloth material...my gosh....tsk tsk...then nvm when to beauty world to eat....i order the western food...i told the auntie that i dont want the baked beans on my plate in chinese she still can reply me ok...when the food come there was the stupid baked bean on my plate....gosh...nvm since the person is a old auntie i shall not say much....i must repeat myself next time...then walk ard beauty world with my mum cause was waiting for our dad to pick us up...then headed to wastons...bought myself a pack of lays...meji chocolate...and a black dye...ya decided to dye my hair black b4 i go back to sch...haha...guai eh?haha...k la....shall stop blogging here...hehe..=P...

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